Has anyone else ever wished to hit the pause button on life?
Usually I don’t. I find myself waiting and longing too often for stuff I want and don’t have. Things of the future. Perhaps I have more pessimistic tendencies than I’d like to admit. Sometimes, I just wait for my life to wiz by because of something more exciting or more important still to come.
Finishing high school.
My wedding day.
Getting my drivers.
Buying our first home.
Then I became a mom.
Wow. Talk about a shift in life and reality. Ten months flew by. I KID YOU NOT! Today I can’t remember if I fell pregnant in 2014, because 2014 sounds like only yesterday. I look at my boy and it’s like: Pause! Just pause! For a moment, I can’t wrap my head around the fact that this little Monkey was in my tummy. In ten short months, I’ve seen him develop and grow. He sprouted two teeth. He crawls like a formula one racing car. Tantrums? Woooheeee… Probably got that from his daddy (LOL). Soon, he’ll be running, talking. I’m afraid to blink and find him driving. Then college. Then his wedding day.
My head spins at the idea.
My heart aches.
Why is everything going so quickly? Then it hits me. I might not have a pause button. I might struggle to juggle a full time job. Motherhood. Marriage. My dream of becoming a published writer (In no particular order). I might fail miserably most times. But I still get to experience the journey. I take a deep breath and focus on my “ride”. I appreciate the adventure. It’s where the fun happens. I might not be able to pause life, but I can enjoy the ride. While there’s nothing wrong with being ambitious, feeling excited about the future, we must never allow our yearnings to neglect the opportunity where God has placed us, and whom He placed under our care. *Thanks Robin 😉 *
1 Lord, my heart is not proud, nor my eyes haughty;
Nor do I involve myself in great matters,
Or in things too difficult for me.
2 Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul;
Like a weaned child [resting] with his mother,
My soul is like a weaned child within me [composed and freed from discontent].
3 O Israel, hope in the Lord
From this time forth and forever.
Friends, sometimes the journey is long and difficult. Sometimes, it’s a breeze. In all those times, we have the Lord with us. And for that, I am grateful.